Sunday, January 23, 2011


I am frustrated. What about? This: $$$$. Right now I just want to go rob a bank so I can FINALLY get to some of the projects, etc, I have been day dreaming about. (Side note if you are poor, limit the amount of time you spend reading Real Simple and Martha Stewart in the grocery line. It will only further the feelings of poverty frustration. And I would never rob a bank in real life.)

I know, I know, money doesn't buy happiness...but I'm sure it helps.

It's 11:30 at night and I can't sleep because I just feel...frustrated. It seems like any time we start to get a little ahead, something happens that puts us right back where we started. I know I have SO MUCH to be grateful for. So much that so many people dream of having. I have an absolutely adorable son. I have a handsome, caring, quirky, hardworking, sings in the shower husband. I'm healthy. We rent a fantastic home. I just need to vent.

So here it goes. If you continue to read, please don't judge, I just need to get it off my chest.

1. I'm frustrated that my ideas usually get put on a figurative shelf until some later ambiguous date.
2. I'm frustrated that Rhett and Jake often have legitimate needs that use a lot of our resources.
3. I'm frustrated that if I do get something for myself to do, read, study, try or wear it almost always gets returned because something else comes up.
4. I'm frustrated that my personal "allowance" usually ends up going toward Rhett and Jake.
5. I'm frustrated that in a week I'll be taking a week long job, which will be pretty demanding, which I will have Rhett with me the whole time, and all the money I'll be earning will be going toward buying Jake new suits.
6. I'm frustrated that I just found the most amazing dress that made me feel so pretty and sexy and confident that was on an amazing sale and I had to return it.
7. I'm frustrated for the time it takes to cut coupons and shop the sales. (Although it does feel good to save at least 60% every time we grocery shop.)

That's enough for now. I know this must make me sound like the worlds biggest whiner and ingrate. I guess I'm just looking forward to the day when I can go to Joann's or Star Mill Antiques or Home Depot or Nordstroms and not have to count every single penny (literally). I don't need a huge house. I don't need to go to Europe every summer. I don't need to get my nails done every week. I just want to be able to feel like it's OK to buy something for myself.

Thanks for listening. :)


  1. Ugh, I totally feel for you! I have to return a fabulous pair of boots this week because something came up and I just can't justify the purchase. BOO! One day I'll buy TWO fabulous pairs (is that correct? pair? pairs?) to make up for it...

  2. I soooo know how you feel! It's so frustrating! I won't tell you it gets easier as you get older because I don't think it does. I think we will always have to sacrifice something for a our husbands and kids. And honestly I don't think it will ever matter how much money we have. The more money we get, the more we tend to want. Maybe we'll both have cute homes like those in Real Simple and MS someday. But even people with cute homes go bankrupt. The good? I don't think we necessarily want something "new". I think we just get bored with our surroundings and want something different. Could be wrong... but that's what I've figured out myself! You really don't need a lot of money to change things around a bit. Honest. Want a new look in your home? Rearrange the furniture in your house, change out pictures on the walls or rearrange those too! Want new clothes? See if a friend your size will temporarily swap with you! Or let you borrow cute shoes! Since you're really tiny and that may be hard, I've had better luck in the past (when I was smaller) finding clothes I like at used clothes stores. Even for the kids! But I also think that NO MATTER WHAT- your allowance should belong to you. Even if it means cutting down a little bit. Moms deserve SOMETHING for all their sacrifice- with no regrets!

  3. I hate counting pennies...I'd rather count 100 dollar bills. :)

  4. Funny thing I have this debate in my head all the time. I am sure it will be worth it, its just that whole patience thing gets in the way = )

  5. I DEFINITELY understand how you feel!!!! Oh the joys of being a wife and mother. :) and ps: It's ok to want something for yourself every once and a while.

    Love you Julia!! You are an inspiration to me!